Light

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My life has been rocky and swaying

and the darkness comes without warning;

I'm walking gently through the grass

there are soft blooms, and in the distance there is light

I can see it but I can't yet feel it

I can see it but I can't quite touch it

I know it's there, but there's a fog in between

Inside I am driven by fire,

iron and raw knowing;

there is a shield and it surrounds me

yet I'm swallowed by the size of it all

the scale of the hurt and the guilt

the pain of taking what once was

and making it no longer anything;

of taking what once had a pulse

a song

and a future,

and tearing it in half

like a letter you just couldn't get right

Each day is a new emotion

a new sense of clarity

or a new sense of fear

But I'm walking slowly past the trees

there are budding greens, and in the distance there is light

I can see it but I can't yet feel it

I can see it but I can't quite touch it

I know it's there, and the fog will clear.

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