Pendulums, Incense & Connectedness

Yesterday I went out to my favourite place ever, Odyssey, a metaphysical shop. My intention was to get a new pendulum, in which I found very successfully and with great joy. I feel a lot of energy in my hands and felt very drawn to the lepidolite pendulum I scouted out after scanning the wall scattered with dangling gems and crystals. I was overjoyed indeed!

Lepidolite is very pretty, lavender-esque, and represents the Third Eye and Crown chakras.

I also picked up some incense – Sage, Cedar & Sweetgrass – along with a small sage candle. Sage is often used for the clearing and cleansing of energies. It’s very purifying indeed and the combination of incense I got smell absolutelydivine! When I got home, I infused myself in it all and warped into a space of calm, grounded centeredness. I felt SO very connected. To myself, my Higher Self, to Source, to that space inside of us that is ever-so-calm and free and true and at peace. You know that place?

I think one of the best things we can do is spend time by ourselves. Embrace solitude. Explore ourselves introspectively. It is through the beauty of solitude that we discover, transform, reflect, learn, unravel, release and become.

perpetual transmutation

You know what's funny?
How things change.

And it's constant, too. Nothing is ever the same! This constant flow of perpetual transformation and transmutation blows my mind.

But there's something beautiful about it. And perplexing at the same time. Although, it seems, much of the change that we anticipate is of the future; of mental constructs like bricks building upon one another of un-manifested, intangible realities that really are non-existent. One minute the jigsaw was fit one way and the next minute it's a totally different puzzle. So, you see, in this way we can assume not to grasp on so tightly to our various preconceptions.

Am I making sense?

Think about it this way. Just one infinitesimal rearrangement of happenings and the whole cascade of forthcoming events is altered. It's crazy.

I do believe I'm unintentionally referring to the chaos theory.

But even completely unrelated to that sort of butterfly effect, I'm referring to how our plans change with just the flick of a switch. Something that effects us, changes our mind or shifts our perspective and ultimately alters the paths we're on.

This makes me think about how we design every single moment in whichever way we choose.

Bonfires & Outer Space Dreaming

The other night I went to my friend's friends house who lives on a huge piece of land with forest and beautifulness and he even sells organic produce! Anyway we went for a bonfire, some music and a good time. It was pretty cool. People were playing guitar and bongo drums and lots of singing and the best part was the super awesome conversation I had with a cool Robert Plant look-a-like guy :P We just talked wonderfully about yoga and philosophy and holistic health and Oneness and the Universe and speaking of the Universe...

The other night, for the second time ever, I dreamed I went to outer space. Just like the first time, it was so real and so damn COOL!

IT WAS AWESOME!

Myself and various people were in a very small capsule-shaped spaceship on a 3 day trip to Planet X. At one view of the dream, this capsule spaceship was extremely crammed and you had to either sit or bend down to fit. But from another view of the dream, the inside was a giant gymnasium with the walls painted pictures of the Earth and geographical layouts.

I was nervous travelling on this 3 day trip because I was worried the spaceship would break down or fall back down to Earth and we'd all die. But the trip was fine and we flew through the blackness, amongst the stars with perfect views of other planets we passed by. We arrived on Planet X, and I remember it was very quiet and beautiful and I hoped the rest of the population of Earth wouldn't come because then it would become busy and loud.

Anyways! Today I went and got the moldings for my retainer, oh boy oh boy oh boy!! My braces will be off in only 2 weeks!! I'm also seeing Sam Roberts in concert this Friday at Massey Hall in downtown Toronto! Can't wait!!

Life, Death and Battlestar Galactica

My brother got me into the series Battlestar Galactica yesterday and since then I've watched a bunch of episodes and some mini-series movie and I like it so much!
It really gets me thinking a lot about this universe (obviously, since it takes place in space) but also death; there's a lot of dying involved and sacrifice and it makes me think so much about this life we live and how vast this world is all that mind boggling stuff.

I sometimes think about how we have such a tiny lifespan and then it will all be over. Isn't it so strange to think about? I suppose we push that to the very backs of our minds a majority of the time, but if you really think about it, everything you know now will not exist at some point. How depressing, but how interesting! Everyone and everything we ever live for is just gone in an instant. All this solidifies in me the importance of living in the best way we can, do what makes us happiest, and most of all to not worry (or complain) so much! Unless of course reincarnation is an option, which I may or may not believe in - my belief in reincarnation stems from a question I've always seeked an answer to: If we can be created and have a life, how come we can't be created and live again? I just so deeply wonder how we are all only alive because our parents created us, but can't we be created some other time? (I've also wondered why can't we have multiple lives at once??? Gosh these questions are too abstract to be coherent).

One of the characters in the show is diagnosed with breast cancer. I'm pretty sure I'm a bit much of a hypochondriac and in fact getting cancer is one of my top biggest fears. I just worry sometimes so much about - not only if that headache or that pain is some deadly disease developing - but dying at an early age and missing out on all the life that would be left to live and be apart of. I think death scares me a lot. But that's besides the point. All I know is that we've ended up with a life so we might as well live in the happiest, healthiest, vivacious and fulfilling ways possible.

Anyway, live long and prosper!